The inception is an image.
Sparks in synapses, implosion of the heart,
some flowing gash in the soul.
The inception is an idea.
Floating dust in the garden where truth lives
until caught by flashlight,
absorbed through the flesh of fingertips,
travelling up the arm
like a heart attack
the pain of learning that articulation is not easy
it eats beasts from the inside
while they reach for dying sounds
eyes rolling back with the effort.
It scratches guts and gullet getting to the mouth,
but doesn’t always make it past the lips.
Words have their own war
shields and swords and sledgehammers,
club, bow, morning star,
spear, spear, spear,
what’s the synonym for spear?
We have to send her out unarmed,
a battle for her right to escape,
to become a tangible weapon,
dress her up in chainmail so they can’t hurt her,
give her an axe, see if they come close,
she clings to the front teeth but the world sucks her out
simply uttered virgin,
now obliterated pronoun.
Conversation is a killer.
Sometimes things shouldn’t be said out loud.
Feel the spark of an image and pick up a pen
see the dust of ideas and tap a few keys
blank pages have no gavel
paper has no mind of it’s own
it offers alphabets back to the brain,
formed with a dancing hand,
It drowns ink in its bleached sea.
Articulation is not easy.
It knows the struggle of meaning
how there is never just one way to know the answer,
how the truth is a bunch of broken lies,
glass slipper shards wedged in the head,
how all the carefully measured snowflakes
cannot embellish a cloudy metaphor.
The beginning of thought must chase its own tail,
sit, panting and thirsty, think what to say.
Fester an idea.
Nourish the cells eagerly turning them into sense.
When will the sounds come?
When they are ready.
Do not let your whispers make dark shapes of doubt.
When will the words come?
They’re already there.
Pick them out.
Put them in the right order.
There is nothing but muteness until you try.